Show Me: Me

Show Me: Me

Though it is somewhat embarrassing to me at this point in my life I admit that I paid little to no attention to anything political until I was in my mid to late thirties. There are concrete reasons behind that fact that are beyond the scope of this essay. As I have grown older, and I trust more mature, I have experienced an evolutionary relationship to local, national, and world affairs. The level of engagement has fixed and waned, as has what I allow it all to mean about me and my own level of consciousness.

I have never experienced as toxic or vitriolic a political climate as has been exuded the past sixteen to eighteen months. It truly has been incredible. I have remained mostly awake to the fact that the entire mess is reflecting what needs to be out pictured of the collective human shadow. I have used it as a personal exercise in what it is I need to see about me. Every trigger, charge, projection is a potential blessing. It is all potential internal growth. Each and every encounter is also a chance to make a conscious contribution. Please note that I said CONSCIOUS contribution. We as energetic beings are always contributing something to the Universal Field. If I believe and identify with my triggers and judgments of what I am seeing and hearing on the political stage I am literally amping up what it is I am in judgment of. If I scream at the TV or at social media I energetically add war to the world. If I instead bring a presencing awareness to the charges and the triggers in my own energy system, praying through the chaos and asking to be shown what needs to be integrated in me, I cast a vote for peace within me and in my world. It is a moment by moment choice. Increasing choice is a hallmark of spiritual maturity. And increasing choice and maturity are a result of persistent and dedicated practice.

I do have a strong preference in terms of the outcome of this election. And I have a stronger desire to hold to the underlying truth of all those involved, especially those with whom I disagree. I am committed to staying awake to the distinction between behavior and Beingness, between ideology and Source illumination. I have already cast my ballot as an American citizen, and I continue to cast a vote for Love in each and every interaction with what is unfolding. It isn’t always easy. I strongly and vehemently disagree with many of the ideas being shared. And I have used the Biblical admonition “cast the first stone” as a mantra. I have allowed my judgments to open the way for a clearing in me. I am personally more passionate and purposeful regarding liberty for all people. And that liberty is granted to those who hold opposing positions to what I hold personally dear.

I continue to pray “show me: me.” Let me see my own lovelessness. Let me see the places where perception and programming obscure presence. Let me see me, and let me be a continual vote for Love.

The Choice For Connection

The Choice For Connection


We are hard-wired for both protection and connection.

Reread that. Or allow me: we are hard-wired for both protection and connection.

The relationship between those two hardwired systems is what could be termed awakening.

I write these words as a category four hurricane is moving toward where I live here in south Florida. I am riding the waves between protecting myself and those I love from what could be catastrophic effects of an enormous storm, and the moment by moment choice to connect to what is true, authentic, and constant within me. The former feels contracting, and the latter expanding. There is a definite rhythm. There is a birthing happening within me. I have worked far too long at authenticity to claim there is no fear. I am grateful to no longer shut that system down. Fear is a natural and healthy response to what is aiming its force at an area and at people I have grown to love these twenty-one years here. I have felt the force of multiple hurricanes during that time, and I remember well the force, the fury, and the unpredictability.

I also remember and have witnessed already this storm cycle the way in which people can show up at their best during these times. There is an underlying vulnerability and powerlessness when facing these events. We come together to protect ourselves in ways that prudent, wise, and discerning. The beauty for me is that as opposed to what so often happens in day to day living is that these protective activities are done with a broader sense of connection. We help each other. We check on each other. We pray with each other. We know at a deeper level that we are truly in this together. There is only so much we can do when faced with 140 mile per hour winds. But the force of our caring, connection, and compassion is unstoppable. The sense of being vulnerable actually moves us from protection to connection. It is a bridge. Our armor is melted by the natural impulse to care about something greater than ourselves. If we do not shut down in the intensity of fear we are opened into an intimacy of love. Of belonging. Of connection.

I have received and I have made multiple calls simply for the sake of conscious connection. I am beaming my energy to all those who have been and are likely to be affected by this storm. I have taken the precautions I needed to take in the name of protection. And now my attention is zeroed in on connection. My attention is on being completely and authentically connected and embracing of everything that is arising in me. My attention is on embracing all those that I know I love, and all those I love by virtue of our shared humanity. I am committed to being a category five force of love, connection, and belonging. As the storm gets louder I will feel the instinctual protective reaction, and I will meet it with a loving response.

I am hardwired for both protection and connection. I am a moment by moment choice for connection.

Loving You Is What I AM

Loving You Is What I AM

For all the religious and spiritual lip service paid to the notion that God is love there is much lovelessness on display, often in the very places that espouse this teaching. I am personally intent on that paradigm being my unequivocal felt-reality. I am committed to uncovering all lovelessness within me so that I may be a living breathing space of God-love.

And that necessitates that I love you.

If this Thing we call God truly is love and I am created and contained within It then love is what I am. Period. No compromise. No conditions. No excuses. I am the love that is God and my only God is love. To love God is literally to love love. In order to love love I must sync into the Isness of God-love and then let myself be lived and loved within It. Then I must love you as a part of that Great All-inclusive love. As soon as I judge or withhold from you I am out of sync with love and so am dissonant with the experience of God. And only I can bring myself back into harmonic resonance. Only I, as a being of free will, can choose to return to love’s frequency. For me that is ultimately the only choice there is to make. I will either vibrate at the frequency of love or I will languish in the unconsciousness of separation and fear.

It is simple yet it is radical. It is not up to me to get you to love me. It is not up to me to decide whether or not you are deserving of love in this behavioral realm. It is not up to me to work endlessly to make myself worthy of love. It is up to me to make loving love my constant practice and my highest priority.

However you choose to show up in my sphere my task is to maintain my sense of the Greater Love. I may not like you or your behaviors. I may disagree with your ideologies and agendas. I may not understand or resonate with your choices. That is all irrelevant in my choice to focus on the Absolute Love that is our shared Truth. I am committed to accessing a different lens than what is the standard optical of the critical mass. I am here to see the God in you which is indeed an undeniable love. Love isn’t variable at the level of the Absolute. It is Absolute love that I must stay aligned in. When I am awake within the God in me I will see and know the God in you. It is in the shared abiding place that we is one. IS. ONE. GOD. LOVE.

Loving you is what I am. Literally. In order to be what I am I choose to extend the love within my heart and let it surround the world. If I am out of sync I pray and I return to the One Reality which is Love. As I do this I live in the reality that God is indeed Love. And love is what I am.