SUFFERING AND LOVE

SUFFERING AND LOVE Sometimes an impact is so sudden, so unexpected, so jarring, so severe that the automatic closure of the reptilian brain seems somehow to be circumvented.  This has occurred for me only a few times in my life. It has taken two predominant forms: great love, and profound suffering.  I have found that both of those energies are equally as scary. I know that most would argue with the validity of that statement. But in my experience, we humans are as afraid of deep, intimate love as we are uncontrollable, profound suffering. And the two of those are far from unrelated. Deep, intimate love can lead us to uncontrollable, profound suffering, and in fact, often does. Anyone who has loved deeply and lost that love

SUFFERING AND LOVE2019-04-20T11:27:57-04:00

LETTING MY TEARS BE SEEN

LETTING MY TEARS BE SEEN The room was astoundingly bright and bone-chillingly cold. There was banter and chatter, some directed at me yet somehow not to me. I was told to move from gurney to procedure table. In doing so I went from being me to being an object to be examined and explored. The words coming at me became less and less personal. I could feel myself disappearing among cloths, wires, instruments, and tubes.  The medical personnel in the room were friendly yet detached. I was moved about and positioned and poked and I was prodded. As the outer became less personal my interior became more and more intimate and alert and spacious. I remained centered in a compassionate awareness of what it must be like

LETTING MY TEARS BE SEEN2019-04-20T11:28:20-04:00

ODE TO THE OPEN HEARTED

ODE TO THE OPEN HEARTED There is spiritual theory, and then there is spiritual reality.  In order to have theory become reality there must be direct experience. A spiritual concept will live in the head and have no real impact. When life in some way pushes a theory will fail you. Every time.  When life is pushing and the theory fails, in that failure is a glint of possibility. Depending on what you do with that failure it will either be buried in denial or integrated via direct experience. Leaning away the lesson is left to be recycled. Leaning in, a vague theory becomes a felt-reality. What you suspected to be true becomes a living truth. It becomes real and vital and sustainable. Every time.  For over

ODE TO THE OPEN HEARTED2019-04-20T11:28:53-04:00